I see class everywhere, as in socioeconomic class. I'm at the local comm. college library (lower-to-middle class) looking at artforum magazine (highbrow). artforum reminds me of Vogue: so many ads I can't tell when I'm looking at an article. Makes me mad. Reading a retrospective on Chris Marker. Alexandra Stewart (hot!) writes that she was "sent to a boarding school at the Vermont-Canadian border, way off in the country." I instantly hate her. In my middle class suburb of Detroit, I dreamt of going off to boarding school. I would have gladly traded the inevitable sexual assault for even a Holden Caulfield's time at a prep school "back East." Alexandra Stewart viewed boarding school as a sentence to be served. A sentence that she ultimately did serve--in exchange for a trip to fucking Paris.
The more I read of her personal reflections on Chris Marker, the less I hate her. I admire Chris Marker's movies and so her affection for him endears her to me. And this is always the way it is. I try to keep things utterly simplistic but it never works out. I'm not bragging or anything. I know this is obviously true of everyone except the most ludicrous ideologues, like Nazis, etc. Thing is, I want to find a way to be an unequivocal ideologue (in my case Marxist) who is NOT ludicrous. Unlike most other people (I think), I take no pride in seeing the grey areas; I take no pleasure in exploring the complexities and nuances of things. I like concreteness, certainty, high contrast, extremes, excess, clarity, cleanness. Shit or get off the pot. Pick a side. When Bush said, "You're either for the U.S., or you're against it," I called him stupid like most people. But deep down it was not because of his mindless simplicity, but because he was on the wrong side.
The more I read of her personal reflections on Chris Marker, the less I hate her. I admire Chris Marker's movies and so her affection for him endears her to me. And this is always the way it is. I try to keep things utterly simplistic but it never works out. I'm not bragging or anything. I know this is obviously true of everyone except the most ludicrous ideologues, like Nazis, etc. Thing is, I want to find a way to be an unequivocal ideologue (in my case Marxist) who is NOT ludicrous. Unlike most other people (I think), I take no pride in seeing the grey areas; I take no pleasure in exploring the complexities and nuances of things. I like concreteness, certainty, high contrast, extremes, excess, clarity, cleanness. Shit or get off the pot. Pick a side. When Bush said, "You're either for the U.S., or you're against it," I called him stupid like most people. But deep down it was not because of his mindless simplicity, but because he was on the wrong side.
